What do you want?

First. I love you. I've always loved. And I've always have tried to love you even though I got caught up in my own head - I never stopped fully loving you.

I told you at the beginning that I wasn't going to make a decision in whether to leave you, but rather if I could actually accept the new dynamics of the relationship in particular to you hiding something from me. And what that would look like one way or the other.

I was up all night - I tried going to sleep but I couldn't. So I had a lot of time to think and reflect and figure what I wanted.

I realized that if we truly care about this relationship and want to actually make it work - I do need full disclosure. If you aren't ready to really make it work with me, or if you want to explore this other opportunity, I'll accept it - but I can't stay here for that.

I want to know what you want. Not what you think I want, or what your mom or family would want, not what someone else would want, but what do you want? What do you truly want?

If I know what you truly want, I can get behind that and support you. If it's not with me, I'll move out. If it's with me, we'll work together on the relationship.

I love you no matter what.... I truly love you. So what do you want?