Sleep?

I barely slept at all last night. I had a hard time falling asleep, last time I looked at the clock it was just past 2am. I woke up about 5:30 and laid there till about 6:30.

I'm stressed about hearing what your mom has to say. I didn't realize how stressed I was until I lashed out to you tonight about over committing myself with soccer.

After dinner with my dad, you asked if I could pick up Dylan. Yes, of course... But now I am going to have to make something else up to leave to go meet your mom.

Part of me wants to think your mom wants reassurance that I am a good guy that isn't just a bump on the log. Someone who has made mistakes but wants to know how I am going to be moving forward wanting the best for her daughter.

Another part thinks she just wants to spew out how much I suck and I'm not good enough wanting to convince me that I shouldn't ask you.

I saw my aunt today when i went over to take out her garbage for her. I told her about my meeting with your mom. She asked if I would not ask you based on what she says, and I said no. I didn't ask for permission, I asked for her blessings. I might not be perfect but I'm not going to let other people dictate my life decisions based on what they think.

It's going to be a long day tomorrow.